Monday, November 3, 2008

Here we go..

Never did I think I would start do something like this. I must say though, I was inspired by the many blogs that I visit regularly (the entire Yu clan and Hannah Diller) to begin to put my thoughts down. It's also my intention that when some of you all see me, we won't have as far back to go to catch up ha ha..

Unlike many of dear friends I am not married nor do I have any children. My life you would think is fairly simple and I'm sure when things are different I will look back and realize my life now was simple but standing in my high heeled shoes, things are still hectic and slightly chaotic at times. I think my admin told me today that I have a classic case of "the grass is always greener" syndrome. She laughed as she told me that she'd love to see me get two kids dressed and out the door for school and still make it into the office on time. It didn't take me long to realize she was right. I can barely manage to get myself dressed and out the door on time. My hats off to all you moms..

I'm having a milestone birthday in a little over a month and that has caused me to be a little more introspective than usual..and that's never a good thing. My usual stress reliever is usually a good 4-6 mile jog on the hike and bike trail. It's amazing how a run can clear your mind..especially after a long day at the office dealing with people and issues. Unfortunately I hurt my knee running a race in Houston in January and after months of running on a hurt knee, a triathlon and lots of physical therapy, I had surgery to repair my knee in August. I should be content with the fact that my knee feels better and the simplest things no longer cause much pain but instead I dwell on the fact that it's been almost three months and I still can't bend my knee like normal. I really miss my heels (even though there have been occasions in the last couple of weeks that I wear them for a bit) but above all I miss running. Now that the weather is a tad cooler I can't help but want to test my knee and run even though I am still not allowed to run per my doctor. I've always considered myself to be a patient person but this whole situation with my knee has made me realize how what I am is so short. I grew up in a Christian home with parents who loved God and meeting with those who had felt the same way. In my post college life my priority became my career. There is no problem with pursuing professional goals but my life priorities shifted. I gave less and less effort maintaining my relationship with God and fellow Christians. This situation with my knee coupled with a lot of things I have gone through this year has caused Him (i.e. the Lord) to show me that I'm not as capable as I once thought I was and that I'm not expected to go at it alone. As I look back I realize that he has been showing me for a while now that I need him, I'm only now starting to listen.

I don't expect this blog to be "spiritual" just a document of my journey through the ups and downs of a young professional trying to do a lot of things the best way I know how.and to take each day and circumstance step by step. The best running coach I have had was my inspiration to try my first half marathon. I'm a 10 and under mile runner by choice and the thought of running a mile over that overwhelmed me. For months she trained me and many times while we ran and I literally cried cause I couldn't run anymore, she would tell me to take each mile step by step. At the time I thought it was the dumbest thing I ever heard but the more I focused on just that one step before I knew it we had run farther than I thought was possible. I tend to get overwhelmed with decisions and other happenings in my life but I am learning that to take that same strategy to my everyday life. I get overwhelmed by tomorrow sometimes, so I'm taking things day by day, step by step.

I can't wait to be able to share with you about my first run after I'm released from the doctor, my first running race and Lord willing my first post surgery triathlon in May.I'm sure I will blog about my beloved Longhorns. I won't be commenting on the game this past weekend because well, I'm just choosing to not talk about it. It's easier that way..

Oh and sorry for the long post, I promise they won't usually be this long


Samuel said...

Selena, wonderful first post! I never knew you were such a good writer, and I look forward to reading all your future posts...and I definitely agree with you: step by step, day by day, we need each other along the way. Hey, did that rhyme? Sweetness!

Julie said...

Hi Selena! I'm very new at this whole blogging thing (i.e. in the last week or so I've kind of caught on... I know I'm so behind the times). Anyway, your first post was really great, and Sam is right- you are a good writer! Can't wait to read more,
Love, Julie

Vanessa said...

What a great first post! I personally like long blog entries, as they open a window into someone's life. Step by step. . .perfect title for YOUR blog! Looking forward to more posts. . .which reminds me, I need to write a post for mine! When are you coming over?

Susanna said...

Yay, yay! I found your blog! Great opening and I can't wait to read more...hope you don't mind but I went ahead and added your blog to my link list on ours: check it out when you can :)